Angel's Birth Story
I had my baby over the weekend...she is a beautiful little girl but she does have some issues. She is suspected of having Down Syndrome and will be having chromosome testing to see if she does for sure. She also has a serious heart defect and will need surgery in a couple of months. They would do it now but she isn't strong enough yet so she will need extra care until then. She is in NICU right now and will be discharged when she is strong enough to come home. I miss her so bad...I have only held her 3 times since she was born as they took her from me right away...to another hospital.
This has been a severe blow to us all but we are so grateful that she is here and that she is getting healthier every day. We pray that no more bad news comes our way and that she only contines to get better and better. She is so peaceful now...she doesn't cry or whine...she just lays there sleeping calmly. Every once in awhile she make this expression that just melts me...as if to say "Don't worry Mom and Dad, I'm gonna make it just fine!" She looked me right in the eyes last night and I saw Heaven. She is precious...and we are so blessed!
Baby Weight: 6lb3oz.
I called the doc Friday because I thought I saw white spots in my throat and was concerned. I hadn't slept and was soooooo tired and sicky. He told me to go to the clinic. Then I went to the bathroom and noticed my panties were wet. I was gonna let it go since I was coughing so hard and peeing when I cough but something told me to call the doc. As expected, he sent me to the hospital where I tested postive for amniotic fluid...I had a leak...
The doctor said I had two options...
Go home and risk an infection to the baby because of the ruptured sac or be induced. I was horrified but I couldn't risk huting my baby so I gave in...completely unprepared for what was to come...
They hooked me up to pitocin right away and I was 50% effaced and 1 cm dialated...
7 hours went by and I was having contractions that were getting progressively worse but no dialation. My braniac doc (i don't like him...he was not my usual OBGYN) shoved his big fat fingers into my cervix and STRETCHED IT to 2 cm...
I screamed in agony and demanded an epidural. at this point the pain had me lifting off the bed. He said we should wait until I was 4cm but I said NOW!!!!!!!!!!!
So he did. at least he was smart about that decision. It didn't hurt much goin in...just uncomfortable. and ladies...oh my God...what a relief. I watched the screen as my contractions got stronger with a smile. I felt nothing...
I finally started to dialate. I believe it was because I was relaxed finally. it had to be. I dialated to 10 cm by the next afternoon. I was trying to sleep in the meantime because now I was at 2 days zero sleep--plus I was very sick...
Suddenly the nurse examined me again and said "I think she's ready!" the doc came behind her and said "She's ready!"" (brainiac)
So I got in position (still not feeling anything...not even pressure)...
They told me to push at the next contraction so i was like ok...well time ticked by because i didn't know i was having contractions! so they told me when. i pushed but it felt just like i was doing a half as*sed crunch because i was numb. but that lil gal slipped out in about 5 min. did tear but i was only a 1st degree tear.
they took off the meds and i did start to feel the pain from the stitches but they gave me darvoset (sp?) and it got better each day. i am only 2 days later and feeling pretty good. i just have to watch how i position myself...
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